Romanticism

In relationships, I am almost always the one who plays realist or the devil's advocate. I just want to be practical in relationships, especially because I always fall so easily. As a form of protection, I want to be realistic at all times.

But while I want to protect myself, there are times when the true girly-girl comes out in me. And then, good ol' Taylor Swift comes on the radio, and I realize that I am so much more feminine than I ever thought I could have been.

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water./ And every time I look at you, it's like the first time./ I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter./ She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

As soon as I hear those words in "Mine," I realize how much I want to be with someone for the rest of my life. Not that I ever doubted wanting to have one true love, but I feel that there is no man who would want to put up with me 24/7, nor would I even have the time or energy to put into a long-lasting relationship.

All of my relationships have been quick and over before I know it, which I completely understand. I always am evolving and my world is always changing, and the boyfriend phase is the same way. It is hard for me to see someone sticking with me through the thick and thin, even though that's something I desperately want.

I am only 22 years old, and I know that I'm still young, but I cannot wait to have someone in the long term since I haven't found that yet. My life is just about to start, and I can't wait to see the road ahead, and it would be great to share that with someone else. Anyone want to be along for the journey? Until I find that someone, I guess I'll just stick to singing Taylor Swift and dreaming along with her perfect paradise painted in her songs.