Mulling It Over

After writing my last post, the thoughts of who I used to be could not get out of my head. I was reminded of my former, more immature self last night, when a friend got into a weird predicament. She was not dealing with a situation in the best way, and I realized that I saw a lot of myself in her.

My youth pastor used to tell the upperclassmen in high school that we need to leave a legacy, and to raise a younger student up to replace you after you're gone. With that idea in tow, I see who my friend now could be, and it hurts that she has to go through stupid decisions in order to be better. Like I said, I see a lot of myself in her, and I don't want her to necessarily become like me, but I see so many immature actions and ideas that I used to think or feel. Knowing that I have gone through them and grown through the experiences, I want her to just go ahead and grow up.

In my grade, I am on the older side, and she is on the younger side - that really does not shock me, because you can just tell she has a lot of ideas to sort through about herself before she is successful. She has that idealistic thought process of "I can take over the world" that I once had. Not to say that my dreams are dying, but we cannot all wish to make it big during college or soon there after. Since going to college, I know that I am going to start at the bottom of the totem pole once I graduate...and I'm okay with that. I know I want to do great things in the future, but I also know that most journalists hit their peak around their 30th birthday. I cannot expect to become huge in the eyes of journalists at age 22. It's just not an idea that I wish to hold on to, because it is very unlikely.

I am trying to learn how to build my friend up without saying "You're being foolish, and I used to be the same way." - I don't want to put myself on a pedestal and her feel like she's a little kid. But in time, in time... she'll learn. I know she will.